DAY 4-7: The Week of No Worries

I fell off documenting my week of no worries. I have to admit. But I have learned some stuff. Not worrying is not really about documenting how you’re not worrying. Because for me, documenting not worrying became another thing about which to worry. Here’s a brief recap of days 4-7:

Thursday, May 20, 2021: I spent a few hours talking to a friend about how I was doing this “week of no worries” and about other things related to financial security, emotional development, etc. We talked about the topic of accepting help, from others, from the universe, at all. I described to her all of these instances when I have had to force myself to accept help OR I avoided asking for or receiving help. She informed me that rejecting help on “smaller” things sets me up to ALSO block help related to bigger worries. She told me to consider that I was perhaps energetically blocking all help every time I reject help because I am reinforcing the mental construct that I don’t need help at all.

When my friend shared this with me, I kind of wanted to just go cry. Hearing her words continued to dig deeper and deeper into my psyche the more that I thought about them; I am still processing her words days later, as I write this. Her view of how I interact with help from others will likely be the most impactful thing that I hear all year.

Friday, May 21, 2021: I did not leave the apartment all day. I felt a bit of an emotional hangover, after chatting with my friend on Thursday. Throughout the day, I kept having different scenarios come to mind of times when I had needed but rejected help. I ate leftovers and really just lazed about all day.

Saturday, May 22, 2021: I ran a few errands but again, I did not interact with anyone. A lot of “interesting” worries come when I am interacting with others. When I am alone, my worries are predictable and repeating: job, health, general neurosis.

Sunday, May 23, 2021: I did not leave home. I made a promise to meditate each day of the week, for at least 15 minutes.

What are things that worry you the most? Comment below and let me know.

This week taught me that my worries are recurring and redundant. This week also taught me that sometimes the best way to “combat” a worry is to just acknowledge it, write about it, and check back in to see how you feel later.

Comment and let me know what your greatest worry is!